Usually I write these posts after something major happens or to let my followers know what’s going on in my life, whether it’s my writing life or life in general.
This time, (again with the Supernatural references) I’m doing the ‘carry on my wayward son’ thing, even though I’m a girl. One day when I rest my weary head, I will know I did the best I could with the life I had. A lot has to go wrong before something can go right. I keep fighting for something to go right amidst a world that seems to be turned on its head more and more as time passes. So be it. I will continue on my slow path in the life journey.
I guess my path, with whatever forks I happen to choose, will always lead me somewhere and teach me something I was obviously meant to learn. I am at this juncture a freelance editor, formatter, and cover artist. That last one, I picked up with my time at Vigilante Publishing Group LLC. (Officially closed Feb 28, 2015.) I’ve spent my time trying my best not to take the loss of a place I built with a couple of friends too hard. I’ve done the customary keeping busy to try to stave off the depression of this loss. (Thank god for freelance work!) I can only try my best not to lose what is ever left of my mind in these situations. We will go on and we will be okay, but it’s hard to see what your hands created crumble back to the dust it was before you took the time to build and shape something. It’s almost like losing someone.
So, I’m doing my best to carry on, to keep fighting, working toward my ultimate goal of helping people. Even in my time of sorrow, I think about those who suffer losses in different ways and of course, my heart goes out to any and all.
The silver lining to this unfortunate time, maybe I will get back to writing. Maybe I will have time to cultivate ideas I’ve had for a couple of years since my mind was made to put them on hold. I just released a children’s book I had on my back list for a couple years because I wasn’t confident about drawing the pictures myself. I guess it takes a while to jump that hurdle and become comfortable with yourself. There are other projects I would love to have the time to finish, so, having devoted myself to others for so long, maybe it’s time to devote myself to me. (I know some might find that selfish, but when you devote so much of your time working with, for, and thinking about others, it’s only natural that you feel a little lost at times.)
I suppose what I mean to say is, that time really does and will heal us. We are meant to be ever-changing, always learning. This is just another chance for some of us to do that. The winds of change are blowing, you must carry on, fight your way through the hurdles, and then lay your weary head to rest. As the song goes, ‘don’t you cry no more.’
So, folks, that’s what’s going on, on the road so far…in my path and personal journey through writing and through life. I hope anything you’re dealing with, you’re able to see the value in the silver lining as well and learn from the situations that may seem down-right hard right now. When we step away and look from the outside in, we must try our best to see the good even in something that breaks our hearts. Even when it’s hard to see passed the pain.
Jennifer Oneal Gunn, mom of two who loves her job as author almost as much as she loves helping authors make their books shine by editing, formatting, and sometimes making them great covers. To find out more about Jennifer, check out her author site below: